I Need A Sign

I would like to believe that turning 20 means a big thing to everyone, including myself. For those freshly graduates, a new life ahead with big many big dreams to accomplish. For those entering college,you are surely glad to finish high school and move on.For those already employed, you are wishing for promotions,winning the lottery, and maybe hopes of getting married. Yet, why do we often still hear the expression, 'I need a sign', 'I am lost' every now and then from the people around us? 

To be honest with you, the answer is 'I don't know'. Lately, I find myself being lost and needing a sign too like many of you out there. I want what I cannot get. I want to quit this low pay job but there are consequences, as I know I am not able to get hired easily due to my lack of skill in Japanese. I am not able to get a teaching job like other Westerners because in the eyes of the Japanese, I am not a native English speaker, albeit I have been speaking English since I was a baby.

I really need a sign to show me that things are going to get better. I need to stop getting lost inside my head and feel more positive about the future. I talk to my husband all the time about being positivie but at the end of the day, did I managed to implement those upbeat and powerful words? No...At the end of the day, getting lost and needing a sigh is not just applicable to a 20year old. Its relevant to anyone, anybody.